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In My Mind #3 :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 2 0
Literature
My troubled mind
Suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide
I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing
I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing
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Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
Hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang
Hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang
Pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill
Pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pi
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In my mind #2 :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 0 0 In my mind :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 0 0 Zalina sent this to me :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 0 0
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Hide and seek :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 0 0
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Time To Jump :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 1 0
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Suicide!!! :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 2 11
Literature
Please, I Don't Want To Hurt Anymore!
Please just kill me now!
I don't want to hurt anymore!
Why must I suffer, why must I pretend everyday!
Kill me, or let me go.
The days pass by, my heart is still broken!
I'm just another disappointment to you, to them, to everyone!
I've tried to fight the war that I have been fighting!
It's too late to turn back, now, I'm already in a dark hole.
I'm hurting, and there is no comfort.
Please, I don't want to hurt anymore!
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End My Pain :iconpoison-apple-mist:Poison-Apple-Mist 1 3
Literature
Dear Mother
Dear mother
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

You have hurt me to the core.
To many times you have apologized, to many you have caused me so much pain.
I was just a child, and you did not protect me.
You have never been my mother.
After all you did to me, you show to regret.
You never cared about me.
All you cared about was the money you got from me.
I was always your whore.
I cried for you, I told them to stop.
You just watched and smiled.
Because of you, my heart is empty.
You kept me fed to I can be healthy for you friends.
You have apologized, and promised to protect me.
But each time you broke your promise.
I am away from you, but I will never forget what you did to me.
Your face hunts my dreams.
I can't cry anymore, because I have cried my last tears.
I was just a child, you should o
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Literature
Forgiveness
Forgivness is earned it's not found.
Haters must understand forgiveness is not earned easily.
Forgiveness is hard to do.
But it must be done.
Pray to forgive.
Or just forgive.
Blood is spilled every time someone has done wrong to someone else.
Wounds can be healed by an apology.
But peace comes from forgiveness.
There are things that can be forgiving.
But there are some things  that cannot be forgiving.
To earn forgiveness, is you have to show you are sorry.
You can't show you are sorry.
You don't deserve forgiveness.
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Literature
Tear Drops in the River
As I stand in the cold water,
The memories flow my mind.
The faces of my past, hunt my life.
As each memorie flows my mind,
A tear drop hits the river.
The tears feel warm against my cold skin.
As the river carries away my tear drop,
Pain is eating my heart like acid.
What would happen if I go under water,
Put a rock on my chest and let the water
Flow my lungs.
Who would care if I die.
Who would miss me.
But at the moment, I am thinking of my tear
Drops in the river.
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Please Don't Hurt Yourself
So, this is a PSA mostly on being suicidal. If you're planning on suicide or have attempted suicide before then remember this:
You aren't alone in this.
I've had several journals pop up in my watch feed about them attempting suicide (In fact, just now one person posted a journal saying they were gonna kill themselves, which is why I'm posting this. I'd link the journal but they deactivated so you won't be able to reach them anyways.) and everytime I see one of those journals I get a panic attack.
Even if I don't know you, I still want you to live. I want you to have a future. I want you to exist.
I don't know the mental state you must be in to think that killing yourself is the better option, but please don't go through with it. Think of your friends and your family (If they aren't abusive - I know family can be a huge factor in reaching that mental state in the first place). They love you and life wouldn't be the same without you for many, many people. You might be thinking,
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Furret :iconlilmisskayla:lilmisskayla 37 12
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mo(u)rning dove
3:18 am
her: the only pretty part of me is my pretty little bird neck
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Someone who needs support
Hello everyone!
On one of our affiliates blogs Happy-Squad, someone had left a comment about their friends unfortunate passing..
their name is Poison-Apple-Mist if you'd like to give them support <33 they could really use it right now.
Thank you <3
~Aradney
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Casey x Raph - Quiet in the dark :iconneos-mies:Neos-mies 66 18
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TMNT: Fanfic: collaborative with *BigDreamChaser
*BigDreamChaser :iconBigDreamChaser: and worked on this is was so much fun, my first collab!!
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Mikey dragged his orange blanket from his room. He rubbed his eyes with his free hand. "Sensei, I had a bad dream," he looked up at his father "Now I can't sleep."
"What was the nightmare my son?" Splinter said in a soft murmur, closing the book he was reading. The small turtle looked down at his feet, finding it impossible to talk.
Mikey sniffed, twisting the blanket in his small hands. "Leo, Raphie, Donnie, an' me were in the sewer when…" he paused, he looked down at his feet once again, as if they could help him.
"Then what happened next?" he persisted. Nikey looked at Splinter with horror, his ice blue orbs became cloudy with tears welling down his face, "t-t-then th-there was an-an 'splosion!" Mikey started to tremble, "the-the ground u-under us fell...we all started falling!"
Mikey started shaking uncontrollably, tears streaming from under his mask. Master Splinter scooped him up in
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Literature
A Touch of Sadness (Poem)

The bleak is now here
As tears start to roll
Jolly nonexistent
And heavy is the soul
Not a pain so to say
Nor a passing so grim
Yet we bow to this master
As we bend to it's whim
The pains come with grief
From restless too cold
And remind us of sorrow
Of pasts from the old
Sad is the heart
And sadness in the mind
Whatever the case
It is all but one kind
Sadness in body
As sadness in the soul
The body as thus
Will not remain whole
Yet the sadness does pass
Or so we believe
That the power of our conscience
Can conquer what we perceive
And the mimd does not die
But the pain is there
The next urgent problem
Is if anybody cared
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Literature
Shame (Poem)
When daggers stab the heart
And the blood begins to pour
Because emotions shall attack you
Till your will becomes no more
Because emotion always wins
And the mind is so frail
Against the onslaught of grief
That one's strength cannot pale
The restless lie in tombs
As their souls now seek peace
From a life that runs perpetual
From their sins they seek release
Because Regret remains forever
And will hound your very step
Your heart it seeks from hunger
Till there is nothing of you left
When the choices that we make
Lead to paths we wish not take
Does the mind gives birth to demons
Who haunt us as we wake
And we feel Shame in such actions
And Shame is what we feel
When we realize all our errors
And that all of them were real
From Shame we base our actions
As they haunt our dreams at night
Residing within the mind
As they reach to bring us fright
Because the past never dies
And the burden is so great
That it crushes the heart greatly
Till it can barely hold more weight
For Shame we feel s
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Inside my head are just scribbled up words, I write them over and over and over. If i don't i go crazy, lock myself in my room hide in my closet, and repeat the words over and over. There is an example on my profile, take a look you'll understand, i hope. I have two jounals with all of it down, i rather not show them yet, a lot of it is disturbing again examples on my profile. 
Waaaah! 
Suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide suicide
I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing
I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing I am nothing
Silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent
Silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent silent
Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
Hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang
Hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang hang
Pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill
Pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill pill
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Cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut
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My troubled mind
This is in my mind 
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About my Leukemia, that mysteriously disappeared. So there's a spark of light there.

Now I have other health issues, that I have to deal with, mental issues.

Generalized anxiety disorder.

Chronic Depression.

Schizoaffective disorder? There not 100% sure, still doing test.

And Bipolar.
  • Listening to: Fight song
  • Reading: What's on the screen
  • Watching: horton hears a who/ no judging
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Trail Mix
  • Drinking: Water

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Moonmist
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WinteroftheSoul Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2016
Hey, Moonmist! Hadn't heard from you in a while so I thought I'd check in. How're things?
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SheDares Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2016  Professional General Artist
1. Thank you for the favs m'dear :heart:
2. How're you doing?
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Poison-Apple-Mist Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2016  Student Writer
You're welcome, I'm doing better!
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SheDares Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2016  Professional General Artist
That's good to hear :hug: You've managed to find something that helps then?
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WinteroftheSoul Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016
Happy birthday, Moonmist! :)
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Poison-Apple-Mist Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2016  Student Writer
Late reply, thank you :)
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WinteroftheSoul Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2016
Welcome. :)
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8TeamFriends8 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016
Hello, are you the deviant that HappySquad mentioned on the journal? I'm so sorry this just happened to your friend so young at heart, she didn't deserve to give up. :cling:
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Poison-Apple-Mist Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016  Student Writer
*sigh* No she didn't deserve to give up, you can go to her profile, and read some of of her forums, you will see why she gave up. She was hurting, and was so misunderstood. She had mental disabilities, that I never knew about.

But she was a very kind and had a heart of gold.
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8TeamFriends8 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2016
Can you send me a link?
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